Loves a bitch / 18 Days to go

Nothing much happening, went to the gym finally managed 5KM in under 30 minutes. Was increadibly hot and bothered though.
Had a night in and watched some movies ICE Age 2 and Amores Perros. Ice age 2 was ok not so funny as the original, but it passed the time. Amores Perros (Loves a bitch) is a Spanish language film highlighting 3 set of people all living for "love" connected by a car crash. Its a little like Magnolia though more gritty. Octavio is in love with his brothers wife, and enterers his dog into fights to raise the money for them to run away together. Daniel and Valeria have been having an affair on the first day they move in together she loses her leg.
One of the tag lines read roughly don't worry if you don't see it youll live it.
My life seems very plain in in comparison but then I am not sure I need those sort of stresses. There is lots going on with Facebook at the moment I am really enjoying it compared to myspace, already discovering old friends and hopefully some new ones.

Bradleys Birthday / 19 Days remaining

Went round to Ali's house this evening for a bbq. I ended up cooking for so many children I feel pretty tired now. It was a fun evening though.

My Autobiography

Fill this out IN YOUR OWN WORDS and repost as, "My Autobiography" ... And use your own answers, not anyone else's.

1. Where did you take your profile pic?Which profile? Facebook - Barracuda Macclesfield, blogger - coral sea
2. What exactly are you wearing right now?
   Jogging bottoms, T-shirt, socks, glasses
3. What is your current problem?
   To many to list!
4. What makes you happy most?
   Shouldnt it be happiest?
5. What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
   Red Wine, Sucess! - Cold War Kids
6. Any celeb you would marry
   Angelina Jolie
7. Name someone with the same birthday as you?
   No idea!
8. Ever sang in front of a large audience?
   Nope
9. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
   Nope
10. Do you still watch kiddy movies or kiddie TV shows?
    Not often.
11. Do you speak any languages?
    English, a bit of Japanese
12. Has anyone you've been really close with passed away?
    Nope
13. Do you ever watch MTV?
    Nope.
14. What's something that really annoys you?
    Feeling helpless

Chapter 1:

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1. Middle name:
   David
2. Nickname(s):
   Cookie
3. Current location:
   Woodford
4. Eye color:
   blue

Chapter 2:

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1. Do you live with your parent(s):
   Yes, for now
2. Do you get along with your parent(s):
   Mostly
3. Are your parents married/separated/divorced
   No
4. Do you have any Siblings?:
   Nope

Chapter 3: Favorites

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1. Ice Cream:
   Vanilla
2. Season:
   autumn
3. Shampoo/conditioner:
   no preference

Chapter 4: Do You.

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1. Dance in the shower?
   No
2. Do you write on your hand?
   No paper is more handy, haha, ill get my coat
3. Call people back:
   Usually
4. Believe in love:
   Yes.
5. Any bad habits?
   Yes.
6. Any mental health issues:
   Who dosn't

Chapter 5: Have You.

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1. Broken a bone:
   No
2. Sprained stuff:
   Yes, this damn evening!
3. Had physical therapy:
   Yes
4. Gotten stitches:
   No
5. Taken painkillers:
   Yes.
6. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling:
   Scuba
7. Been stung by a bee:
   Yes, OUCH!
8. Thrown up at the dentist:
   No, no fillings
9. Sworn in front of your parents:
   Frequently
10. Had detention:
    Yes
11. Been called a hoe:
    No

Chaper 6: Who/What was the last

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1. Movie(s):
   Luck number slevin (Rubbish)
2. Three people to text you:
   Paul, Phil and Olya
3. Person you called:
   Bruce
4. Person you hugged:
   dunno, my mum probably sad isnt it
5. Person you tackled:
   Noone since I played rugby in college
6. Person you talked to on IM?
   Nekene
7. Thing you touched:
   Tea cup
8. Thing you ate?
   Curry
9. Thing you drank:
   tea
10. Thing you said:
    Thanks
11. Person you kissed:
    Some random girl in Weatherspoons

A walk in the country / 21 Days to Go

:)

Higher Poynton

Today Bruce, Phil and Myself decided to go for a walk in the country. The weather has been excellent this weekend so we ignored the slightly grey sky's and headed to higher Poynton intending to head upto Lyme Park and back. We got about 1/3 of the way got lost wondered in big circle and then the rain came. Fortunately it was only a little drizzle. We did get to see some nice things, going along the canal was a nice touch and it was certainly different.
After the walk we treated ourselves to a pub lunch at the Vernon arms. It was pretty standard pub grub but I had worked up an appetite and wolfed it :)

It was good to do something different with my day, recently I feel like everything is so prescribed, I have a routine and nothing really changes it.

:(

I had an argument with someone this evening, I was in a bad mood to start with but I hardly needed someone telling me the same old things. Get a new job John, change your life John. Yeah great I hadn't thought about that! I am aware that I am idling my time away and I could do more the trouble is there is so much I could / should do I find it almost impossible to do anything. I spent the other night trying to get my CV jazzed up, I haven't even heard back from anything I applied for recently a bad sign indeed. It is hardly surprising though I have been stuck in two jobs where no training has been given despite the fact my job title is trainee.

Lots of people tell me I should buy a house move out, but the thing is I struggle to think of anybody I know who managed to buy a place off their own back. They all had input from the family either through loans or inheritance non of which are going to come my way. During the time I have been employed since 2004 prices have gone up faster than I can put money in the bank, 6-7% per annum, compared to 5% on my savings.

:S

I haven't got a clear idea of what to do, everyone has their own advice and arguments, some compelling, some dreadful but almost all different. I know I need to decide for myself but I am frankly bewildered and unable to choose. Do I go all out start a new career, stick with what I have? Get a house move out rent, forget everything and go travelling? Or just carry on? I'm not happy now, the trouble is I find it difficult to remember what makes me happy. Being with my friends is great but recently I feel detached from them. I enjoy the gym, but I doubt I would like to be a fitness coach. I guess everything has problems, costs and benefits, only the right choices yield rewards. Well I am confused and tired I'll do what I am best at, ignore it for now.

Aptana

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24 Days to go

I don't feel great tonight I was going to write another self indulgent post but I need to move beyond it. Earlier today P hugged me goodbye and I didn't know how to react. I know that I have never been a tactile person, but I had not realised how detached from people I have become. I told B that I could no longer imagine being in a relationship, and I was completely true. Standing on the dance floor on Thursday I realised I was afraid of approaching people. I think the fear of rejection has completely consumed me to the point where interaction with women outside my social circle is impossible. I am able to be friends with the girlfriends of my friends but not to communicate with a potential girlfriend. I think I have stayed too long and played life too safe I need to wake myself up, the problem is that I don't know how.

Easter Weekend

Met up with Ian, Paul and Pippa for a sunny Saturday afternoon meal. We dined at the Oakwood pub. Had a snake then went back to Ian's house for a home made Frappachino. Ian showed us the rather excellent

Ian's photo montage.

Balloon From Space

Ian and I were chatting when out of nowhere a balloon (or what was left of it dropped onto a tree next to us!

Burst balloon on a monkey puzzle tree

Perculiar way / 24 Days to go

I had a terrible hangover after last night hardly made it out of bed.

Today went to Burnley to check out a set Paul was playing as part of the Blues Music festival there. He had a 2pm session at the Bridge Inn Bier Huis. He plays a pretty good set Pippa even joined in providing backing vocals. It was actually a quiet nice harmony in spite of her sore throat.

We were going to stay and watch some of the other acts. The next band started well a blues affair, they sounded great, unfortunately they were there own greatest fans, getting more and more self indulgent as the set went on the songs got longer with more and more guitar solos. Thanks to Burnley's crap parking I had to move my car every 40 minutes, I managed to walk a block to the car, move it walk back and they were still playing the same song as when I left.

This evening went to watch lost at Phil's house, a kind of recap episode to remind viewers of some of the still outstanding themes and to kill off some more characters.

Athena / 25(ish) Days

Some of the most enjoyable things I have ever done have been spur of the moment decisions. I am not sure exactly why the lack of planning makes it more enjoyable, perhaps it removes the stress of worrying whether plans will turn out.

Regardless, tonight was fluid evening. The evening started with Phil and I heading out to the Kings Head in Cheadle Hulme. It was busy in there and we kept tripping over the bottles and glasses left on the floor.

Next move was to head to John Millington, in there we bumped into Ian, Gilly, and some other friends. One guy joined us called Steve, I had met him years ago, now he is a tanned and incredibly muscled man. Ian made a joke about him doing steroid's and he casually replied that he did, going on to say he used injections "two in the arm two in the ass". Unbelievably but the women seem to like his appearance, though I can't imagine myself ever sticking needles into myself I can see it does make a difference.

After a few more drinks we headed out to the Bollin Fee in Wilmslow. At the Bollin fee there was some sort of altercation, some guy said something to Ian and Phil nearly causing a Fight. Ian basically shouted at him and he backed down, from what I here Phil was spoiling for a fight though!

I got drunk hung out with people, said hi to some people I hardly knew and was generally a drunken person. I think we scared some girl outside the kebab shop at the end of the evening.

Yikes!

Just saw this blog of some of the worlds most dangerous roads. Kind of make you realise driving in the UK isn't so bad at all.

Everything changes but you (26 days to go)

Many people say the life is a circle hat goes around comes around. Today was a very strange day, it started with a useless argument with my dad, we just have different ideas about life.

Aside from work to weird conversations had a big impact on my perspective. This first was an ad that dropped through the door for a cleaning company, normally this would go straight into the bin until I saw who the person behind the company was. A real blast from the past Laura Fairhurst has started her own cleaning business. I really wanted to call her say hello but somehow I have no idea what to say so I wimped out and did nothing.

The second revelation was from an ex work colleague, he is getting married on the 12Th May to another girl I used to work with. They were both my friends and I am really happy for them. He is going to Berlin for his stag do with yet some more faces from the past. While I am very happy for them there moving on with things highlights my inactivity, plus I didn't get an invite, so now I feel depressed.

Those two events highlighted a feature of my lifestyle, both Laura and Greg, Becky Jon and Collin were at a time people who featured prominently in my life but for various reason we became disconnected and no longer communicate. I could argue about whose fault it is though it is irrelevant. The lesson is without work on both sides even good friendship's can disappear during the natural course of life.

27 Days to go

For some weird reason my Internet connection was a totally unreliable.

Nothing much happened tonight, I went to the gym managed 9.5km I will make it to 10 one of these days. I was talking to a fried today about the gym and how narcissistic training can be, admiring oneself in mirrors and toning can, if one isn't careful become self obsessive. I think I am pretty normal though just want to lose some weight.

I have been watching nip tuck recently, its a show about two plastic surgeons which explores aging, the complexities and hypocrisy's of the modern imagine obsessed world. It is a very entertaining show, though full of the full gory details of plastic surgery. My stomach actually turns sometimes at when peoples bodies are being cut up.

I had to raid my money jar in order to pay off a bill, what with buying my monitor and the impending China trip I am a little strapped for cash at the moment. Things will work out without me resorting to raiding my savings. It's going to be tight though.

HOW TO RECRUIT THE RIGHT PERSON FOR THE JOB!

My friend Salma sent this round,

Put about 100 bricks in some particular order in a closed room with an open window. Then send 2 or 3 candidates in the room and close the door.

Leave them alone and come back after 6 hours and then analyze the situation.

If they are counting the bricks. Put them in the accounts department.

If they are recounting them. Put them in auditing.

If they have messed up the whole place with the bricks. Put them in engineering.

If they are arranging the bricks in some strange order. Put them in planning.

If they are throwing the bricks at each other. Put them in operations.

If they are sleeping. Put them in security.

If they have broken the bricks into pieces. Put them in information technology.

If they are sitting idle. Put them in human resources.

If they say they have tried different combinations, yet not a brick has been moved. Put them in sales.

If they have already left for the day. Put them in marketing.

If they are staring out of the window. Put them on strategic planning.

And then last but not least. If they are talking to each other and not a single brick has been moved.

Congratulate them and put them in top management.

29 Days to go

Had a busy day at work, but still just about managed to meet up with my latest Thawte person. He is a Polish guy we didn't speak much though, he just got his points and left.
Not much happened this evening I caught up with Nip Tuck.

Because / 30 Days to go

It took me three goes to start this post nothing much happened today, I cleaned my car, had lunch with the folks and spent the day doing nothing in particular.

Its 30 days until I leave for China I am very excited, though also slightly afraid. For the first time in my life I will be a country where I will be the outsider. Even in Belarus I fitted in

Today was April Fools day. By the time I was up and at em we were already past the 12pm threshold where the joke comes back on you. Its one of the first years something in the papers did't totally take me in. Hopefully its a sign of wisdom ;)

This evening I went out with Ian, always a dangerous plan on a Sunday evening and this was no different, we drank we laughed and chatted. I had more drink than was a good idea for a Sunday evening but not enough that I can't blog. Though perhaps I shouldn't.

I was feeling a little on edge because someone I have been chatting too in a virtual world has started to play a part in my real world. Coupled with this I am troubled with questions about my life, am I doing the right thing, should I make some changes? Am I the arrogant bastard M or L seems to think I am? Tough questions without a reasonable answer in my alcohol fueled state.

I think I often take the path of least resistance, sometimes it the right choice you cannot spent your whole life fighting. The difficulty is knowing the right path. In one bar tonight I saw some images from the Louis Theroux piece on the American family Baptist Church of Topeka, Kansas. They 100% violently against homosexuality touting banners like "God is your enemy, I also saw an anti Diana poster though why I don't know (the sound wasn't on. What worried me was these people looked like normal were white bread Americans.

counting down for cookie's visit - 30 days left

Once i asked cookie that if i could do something for his visit, his reply was easy: the only thing you should do is to help find me a hotel and be patient waiting. so i came out with this: we together write a blog here to memorize, our happiness our sadness during this waiting period. later on i think i will also put the traveling schedule on, thanks to blogger with its stage, as well as the time difference did something good anyway, cause its 2nd April by my time while 1st day by yours. n__n so lets get started.

as far as i could remember the first time we both got to know each other, at that time i was a colleague girl with dreams & curiosity, i didn't realize the guy i was chatting with would really come in front of me in real, but cookie said we would meet one day, i believed him.

Transient

I decided I would do something usful today, so I replaced the converter on one of the lights, mowed the lawns and helped my dad to replace some floorboards. It was rewarding it a little frustrating seems like there are just so many jobs that need doing it is impossible to get on top of them.

My parents got a take away curry as a reward for ou efforts, tested out the Bahrinda in Cheadle Hulme. It was pretty tasty maybe not quiet as nice as the La Qualia but a but cheaper.

Phil and I headed out for a beer, we made it as far as the unicorn though the atmosphere was not great there and I still felt full after eating. I also fel pretty tired and Phil has Akido in the morning so we ended up being boring came back to my house and watched cars. It was fun film, not as good as the previous pixar films but worth watchign for sure.

Stop it your killing me

This evening was a bust. I left work late, after a day of rather difficult testing. After only a week and a half away from the gym I found it incredibly hard to do 60 minute on the treadmill I had to slow down twice to get my breath. Not a great state of affairs, it's annoying how much effort and time is required to build up fitness. Yet it requires no effort and hardly any time to lose that level of fitness.

After all this I was running late to meet Jo Berger for a drink. He is in the process of setting up a Friday night drinking session. I elected to drive as I was running late and met up with Jo, Tom and Ben in the Rampant Lion. I just about had time for one drink, then it was off to Fallowfield. Phil rang and there were all sorts of telecommunications problems, no idea why bt I could hardly get a signal anywhere in Fallowfield. Rather than drink in Fallowfield the plans switched it was off to a house party.

At this point after being cut up I wasn't able to follow Joe. I decided really I needed relaxation whereas this palaver was making me annoyed very quickly. The party was in fact an Ann Summers after party. My now foul mood coupled with my inability to drink because I had to drive meant the prospect of dealing with a group of drunken women was horrifying rather than exciting.

Instead I met up with Phil at my place, we chatted about the week and watched Requiem for a Dream, as Phil revealed he had never seen. It&£39;s a very dark film about the perils of various forms of addiction. I love the cinematography and soundtrack, the modern classical music has been used on so many other films.

Perspective

Phil sent me this from Google video, it gives a perspective on the mind boggling size of things in the universe.