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I feel depressed, even more than usual, got an email for Alison she is off for more adventure and I am still plodding along without a direction. Days like today at work make me wonder why I don't just buy a ticket and leave, anywhere would be better.

It's not that I have such a bad life its just I'm bored so bored I have done anything interesting in ages its just easy to be a clone another cog in the wheel.

I get home to my parents house and they are the same nothing changes they refuse to make even the slightest deviation I love them but they drag me into their malaise especially my dad he just has no ambition sometimes I feel like he actually goes out of his way to fail how can he have wasted so much talent? It's always excuses, and provocation, never action, I don't want to be like that.